Thursday 14 August 2014

Syukur

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. Assalamu'alaikum.

Pertama sekali marilah sama-sama kita panjatkan rasa syukur kepada Allah S.W.T atas segala nikmat dan rezeki yg telah dilimpahkan kpd kita. Setelah sekian lama menyepi didunia blogging. Kini aku kembali menekan papan kekunci. Post kali ni adalah berkenaan dengan dunia Ijazah Sarjana Muda yg telah aku lalui lebih kurang sepanjang 6 bulan ni.

Alhamdulillah, result pertama aku di UiTM Shah Alam baru sahaja keluar, and I should say it's completely unpredictable. Takut sangat. Takut tak mampu nk kekalkan momentum masa diploma dulu. Takut tak dpt penuhi harapan umi abi. Takut tak mampu jadi yg lebih baik. To be honest, degree life is way too much different from diploma life. No more spoon feed, no more tips, no more 'markah kesian'. Byk kena berdikari sendiri, byk kena cari sendiri. Tapi bg aku, itulah yg membuatkan kita lebih baik dari masa ke semasa. Sampai bila nk ada kt takuk lama kan? Aku sahut cabaran ni. Aku cuba sehabis baik utk capai cita-cita aku. 

So, result aku kali ni, Alhamdulillah. For the 1st time as degree student, I did what I can, and I am satisfied with what i got, yet strive to do better next semester. Bukan tk bersyukur, tapi apa salahnya nak kan yg lbh baik kan? ;)

4 pagi mata terkebil-kebil check e-mail. Bukak-bukak je, Allahuakbar.. Berkaca mata ni. Sebab doa aku termakbul. Sebab usaha aku bersengkang mata study malam tak sia-sia. Sebab aku tahu, Allah tunaikan apa yg aku hajatkan. Dan mungkin yg plg penting, sebab aku tahu, sekurang-kurangnya aku ada hadiah nk bagi kt umi abi. Nk bg duit aku tk mampu, aku pn belajar lagi. Nk bg harta, aku apa pun takde. Harapkan secebis kasih syg yg aku ada ni jela yg mampu aku bagi. 

Masih segar dalam ingatan pesan umi awal pagi tadi, "Semoga anak-anak umi semua berjaya bukan saja didunia tetapi diakhirat juga." Tak lupa juga pesan abi, "Jadilah seperti padi, makin berisi makin tunduk, makin tawadduk." I feel so blessed for having such a sweet and loving parents as them.

Jadilah hamba yg bersyukur, memuji Tuhannya saat diberikan kejayaan dan bersabar serta redha apabila diberi ujian atau musibah. Gagal sekali tk bermakna gagal selamanya. Yg tk berjaya, jgn risau semester depan masih ada. Jgn futur ok? La tahzan. Sentiasa ada ruang utk perbaiki agar jd yg lebih baik ;)

Looking forward to start a new semester. Tapi yg sedihnya semester depan tiada lagi kolej buat aku. Kena belajar jadi pelajar Non-Resident. Kena belajar jd lebih matang dan berdikari. Moga kejayaan mengiringi kita semua.

Tabarakallah.

2 comments:

  1. Awak, kenapa nak berubah susah? Bila kita dah ada rasa satu kuasa tarik nak berubah tu, dan sedang dalam proses, tarikan nak kembali ke jalan jahiliyyah sangat kuat. Saya tak larat berdosa. Saya nak berubah tapi em. Selalu lemah jatuh balik. Bukan takat sekali. Dah banyak kali macam ni. Kenapa? Allah tak nak tolong saya berubah ke? Hm.

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    1. Bismillahirrahmanirrahim. InsyaAllah, what was conveyed by me wont contradict with passive meaning or lead to misunderstanding. I used to be in the circumstances as yours. Several boundaries might be in your way which affecting your journey of Hijrh. When you have the intention to change, have you pleaded to Him as much as you desire for it? Salah satu kunci keajaiban adalah terbukanya kunci doa. Believe your pray will be answered by Him. Have no doubt He's listening to you. Start by improving your Ibadah. It doesnt matter how slow your process might be, have no fear that someday you will grant your objective. Slow in time doesnt matter as long as you're doing it continuously. Istiqamah. Deconstruct the passive traits within you and instill a new developed seed one. Ever heard of this? Betulkan yang biasa, biasakan yang betul. Simple sentence and yet, containing such a deep meaning. Try to be with those who keep reminding you to Allah. Do you know how to know whether that person is good or not? Take a look at who they get miggled with. Somehow, have no judgemental in evaluating someone through appearance. Set their weaknesses as your guideline so that you wont copy what they did. Try to acknowledge them instead of bashing them. Remember. Hidayah Allah itu luas. Hope I answer your curiosity, girl :)

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